The Hungry Woman is stressed and, though she will not readily admit it, a little apprehensive. But let’s not be alarmed, folks. It’s nothing I can’t handle. I’m just more aware of myself because I am monitoring it. This is not the time to be lax about one’s emotional and mental state.
Last week, I wrote PDCs (that’s post-dated checks), totaling approximately over half a million. My hands were slightly shaking the whole time because the checks represent money I’m supposed to pay my landlord, money I am projecting I will have.
This may seem funny, but my heartbeat at the time was faster than when I used to sneak into the house near midnight during my younger days!
And then, I learned that the cost of the construction is 3x my original projection. And just to lay it a bit thicker, the construction cost alone is more than the capital that we prepared. My faster beating heart sank a couple of notches.
Putting up a business, it’s quite an experience, and I’m still right in the middle of it.
Since this idea came about, I have been excited, challenged, apprehensive, disappointed, and happy. Nope, no sadness. I don’t want to make room for that. There are days when I feel so positive that it would seem that the store will build itself for free. And there are days when I question my own adequacies.
Once in a while, I even ask myself if I had made the right decision, taking a chance on myself and what life may throw at me outside of employment. This decision affects not just me, but people whose lives I have crossed or will cross. But when it happens, something comes reminding me that yes, I am where I am meant to be.
So I will forge on.
(Not that I have any other choice, heheh. I have already made deposit and advance payments on the location. and I have already committed employment to two people. heheh.)
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So I will forge on.
(Not that I have any other choice, heheh. I have already made deposit and advance payments on the location. and I have already committed employment to two people. heheh.)
(image from www.gettyimages.com)

